Man wtf wrong with me... I ain't felt this down in a long while. Feel unhealthy as fuck, haven't skated in weeks, fuck probably months, barely been eating, always tired but I don't wanna go to sleep cause as of lately I keep having these fucked up vivid dreams that got me sweating and panicking as soon as I wake up almost every night, it ain't like I been doing drugs heavy or anything really different with my life I just feel like a piece of shit. Please GOD let this feeling go away. I got me a job and help my mom, brothers, and girl as much as I can but for some reason I just feel like I'm not doing enough and that shit feels terrible. Fuck it I guess. I need a therapist or something apparels dressed in formal occasion for maternity ladies